Recently, I’ve been struggling with just a lot of thoughts, heavy thoughts. Questions of “Why” seem to plague my mind, reminding time and again that I am not in control. That’s where life gets hard, in the places we are out of control, that are new, or out of our comfort zones.
Why are their no answers sometimes? or a lot of the time?
Why does life turn one way when we expect it to go another?
These unanswerable questions fill my mind. Patrick Rothfuss in his novel poses a thought about the unanswerable question. He writes:
… Sometimes it’s the questions we cant answer that teach us the most. They make us dig for something deeper than the surface will simply give us. These questions teach us how to think. If you give someone just an answer, all he gains is a little fact. But give him a question and he’ll look for his own answers… That way, when he finds the answers, they’ll be precious to him. The harder the question, the harder we hunt. The harder we hunt, the more we learn.
This inevitably leads me back to the Lord, the one with the answers. I pray with all of my heart that I would seek Him for truth and trust that He understands.
Oh God, knower and controller of all, guide my life. Help me to trust you with all of my heart. Help me not live by my own understanding. But in all my ways, let me acknowledge you. Please Lord, guide my path.
I will live by faith. I will be a man of God.
I trust you. Always.